Surgery is tough no matter who you are. The waiting is long. You wait and wait for it to begin. You wait and wait for it to end. Then you wait and wait to see what your new normal may be. You put your faith and trust in strangers and you pass off one of your most precious gifts to their care. It's scary. Today seemed to last 10 years. So much has happened and just as He has time and time again, the Lord has been faithful.
Emma's ENT has an adopted 2 year old from Taiwan. The nurse anesthesist...2 adopted kids. I love how Jesus brings people into our stories at the absolute perfect time. It is just another very visible reminder that He has all of this in His hands.
The surgery went exactly as the medical team had hoped for it to go. Emma has felt pretty terrible at times but we have caught glimpses of her normally happy little self peeking through. Maybe she will sleep well tonight...as well as anyone can when nurses constantly come in to check on you and poke and prod!!!!
One of the nurse practitioners said something in an appointment a while back that has really bothered me. She said "at least this will be easier because you didn't birth her." I don't think she meant anything by the comment but it really struck me the wrong way. I'm thankful to be her mama and to have the privilege to love on her and provide for her whether I gave birth to her or not. The reality is, she spent her first surgical recovery alone. No one was there to feed her applesauce or change her bib covered in nastiness. No one was there to wipe her tears or hold her tight when the pain was too much to bear. And so in the difficult times ahead, we will choose to rejoice because she is no longer alone. She is loved, valued and treasured. She is ours.
Thanks for the update! Sending healing prayers your way and hoping that Emma's recovery flies by. I hate that she's having to go through this, but she's lucky to have such a wonderful family to be with her every step of the way.
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